My Precious Boy,
I’m sitting in our back yard tonight looking at the garden you helped me plant this weekend. Just a few hours ago, this patio table was covered with Star Wars Legos and you were teaching me all about them. I love watching your excitement! Georgie, you are so very loved. So valued and cherished.
God created you with an extra tender heart. You have a sensitivity toward others that runs deep. You are usually aware of how others might be thinking or feeling. These are special things God has planted within you, and they will grow into beautiful tools that you can use to show compassion to many. They will also help you in your relationship with Jesus; having a tender heart toward Him, being sensitive to when He is speaking to you or wants you to do something.
Along with this, you are living with Type 1 Diabetes which has opened your eyes to a whole new world. You can empathize with people going through pain and suffering. In the past few weeks I have noticed that you not only empathize, but you act on it. Which is true compassion.
- When we read the Bible and pray you always want to pray for your Dad. “Dear God. Thank you for this beautiful day. Please put joy and grace down deep into my Dad’s heart. Let him know I want to play with him and I love him.”
- I was struggling through some discouragement recently. You could tell even though I tried my best to hide it from you. I will always remember how you told me that I’m beautiful and graceful and the bestest mom. You hugged me, kissed me and told me that you would help me all day long.
- Your sister stepped on a bee yesterday. Your dad and I couldn’t get her calmed down, but you brought her water. Then you brought a piece of bread and helped her eat it. You spoke soothingly to her about how the pain wouldn’t last long and everything would be OK. She stopped crying and allowed you to care for her. Because you have experienced pain, you knew how to care for someone in pain. It was breathtaking to watch.
And Georgie, just as you reach out and care for others, I want to be sure that you know how many are reaching out and caring for you as well. Today I realized this in a profound way. Your grandparents from Lacey, WA are here visiting and taking care of your great grandma for a few weeks. Your Grandma Patty had to learn how to give insulin shots to your great grandma. When you realized this, you wanted her to give you a shot for lunch today. My heart was in my throat because you haven’t allowed anyone to give you a shot except your dad and me since your hospital visit. It was a huge step for you! And for me.
So many people are ready and willing to walk this road with you. Your grandparents here in town went to an all day seminar to learn how to care for you and give shots. Your brother and sister-in-law are researching, learning, gathering recipes and doing all they can to be prepared in case anything ever happened to your dad and I. My parents are learning as much as they can as well. Your uncle, aunt and cousins sent a huge box of goodies especially to bring us joy. And above all…everyone is praying. Contending for your healing. Constantly.
I’m sure by the time you read these letters, you will know that one of my all time favorite books/movies is The Lord of the Rings. Toward the end of the movie, when Frodo and Sam are trying to climb the last mountain that will take them to destroy The Ring, Frodo falls down under the weight of the evil ring and cannot get up. Sam cries, “I cannot carry the ring for you. But I can carry you!!” And he carries Frodo up the mountain.
We cannot carry T1D for you, my brave boy. But we can, and will carry you. Because we are also being carried. By the Creator and Maker of tender, sensitive hearts. By the One who loves us beyond measure.